And I was right! Well, mostly. There were no chemistry tests, well not for me anyways. I have fallen in love, it's true. I guess that's expected to happen after not writing for you know, a year. (sry, sry). Unfortunately though journal, I do have to report that it is not with the boy who I have written so many previous journals of before. Though I am almost positive that is for the best. I know, not completely, just almost. It's hard to completely let go sometimes, but I am working on it.
He left this morning, back to Halifax, with his newest lover, Allison. Would it have been me? Probably not. It's hard to tell sometimes, although it was my fault, I don't know if i ever could have trusted him. I was so angry for so long and I still am sometimes. I want to cry and write love notes and tell him how truly sorry I AM. But i've missed my chance, we're both in love with new people now, we're probably completely different people now. I just wish there was some way I could get closure on that, to know that it was suppose to work out this way, to know that I am the happiest I could be.
Lucky I know I am now. Can you feel the love?
I can.
He is amazing. There for me every second, of every hour, of every day.
So I guess that would be my major update in the past year (I never did find an irish lover, well.. i did, but it didn't work out). I did have an Irish Blog, though much like this one, it has failed epically. Though much like before, Sarah's blog has inspired me, it is so cute and lovely. Basically, I went all those places, I only missed two planes, and I didn't die. I met two amazing ladies in ireland and spent most of my time traveling with them (Besides when i lost my shit in Budapest).
So I come home extremly poor, was happy for two days and depressed for the rest and one week in Quebec. Bought a house, went back to MUN, stopped failing, found a lover, good thing's do happen.
As of now, well, I am in class so I guess that shows how much of a good student I am. (Though I am no longer failing, or even in the C grade. Watch out A's - I'm coming for you!) and still renovating my house. Living with the dream man, Joemystery, and a lovely new addition to my life, Lenoredo. Or just lenore.
I am going to write soon, and again, and again, I promise.
